That blurry night months ago in the car in the drive way when I figured out all the little lies and secrets we could all hold inside was what gave me this disease
Maybe I got these trust issues some place else, like when you stuck your hand into my chest, pulled my heart out and buried it in the snow on that valentines day last february. It didn’t de-thaw til May
I don’t know how it came to be in me,
but I don’t trust easy.
Neither do you
Don’t deny
Trust is a struggle for everyone on the inside
Maybe you got the disease by eating a raisin cookie
expecting chocolate chips
I don’t know how it came to be in you
but you don’t trust easy
you’ve got the disease too
This worlds been tearing at us for quite some time with its secrets and i’m giving in
I don’t trust any more because nothing can be trusted
My seams are starting to become undone and i’m unraveling at the thought of the world even trying to be honest
It doesn’t have to be a perfect place
I just want it to be honest
Tell me the truth
Don’t cover it with flowers
and hugs
and thats not trues
and its fine just this onces
and I love yous
The world whispers it’s secrets and as you grow up your hearing becomes better
the world hides lots of things from you and me
but soon enough
we will find those secrets
we will hear those whispers
we will uncover those lies
to find what?
All I know is it left me incurable
and I’m letting in
I just wont trust anymore
So thank you world for this disease
nothing can cure me now
