trustissues

 That blurry night months ago in the car in the drive way when I figured out all the little lies and secrets we could all hold inside was what gave me this disease

Maybe I got these trust issues some place else, like when you stuck your hand into my chest, pulled my heart out and buried it in the snow on that valentines day last february. It didn’t de-thaw til May

I don’t know how it came to be in me, 

but I don’t trust easy.

Neither do you

 Don’t deny

Trust is a struggle for everyone on the inside

Maybe you got the disease by eating a raisin cookie

expecting chocolate chips

I don’t know how it came to be in you

but you don’t trust easy 

you’ve got the disease too

This worlds been tearing at us for quite some time with its secrets and i’m giving in

I don’t trust any more because nothing can be trusted

My seams are starting to become undone and i’m unraveling at the thought of the world even trying to be honest

It doesn’t have to be a perfect place 

I just want it to be honest

Tell me the truth

Don’t cover it with flowers

and hugs 

and thats not trues 

and its fine just this onces 

and I love yous

The world whispers it’s secrets and as you grow up your hearing becomes better

the world hides lots of things from you and me

but soon enough 

we will find those secrets

we will hear those whispers

we will uncover those lies

to find what?

All I know is it left me incurable 

and I’m letting in

I just wont trust anymore

So thank you world for this disease

nothing can cure me now